Tuesday, December 12, 2023

Race for the Rainbows

In fields where colors blend, diverse and bright,

Queer sports emerge, a vibrant, thrilling sight.

With pride in every stride, and courage in the game,

Players challenge norms, redefining fame. 


On rainbow courts, where acceptance rules,

Dribbling dreams, breaking barriers, all the tools.

A world of talent, love and grace,

In every match, a unique, inclusive embrace.


Dance of skates on a prideful rink,

Where figures carve stories, no labels to think.

In the arena of hearts, love takes the lead,

In the world of sports, there's no room for greed.


From pitch to pool, and track to sky,

Queer athletes soar, reaching new highs.

Earning love, breaking molds with might,

In this game of acceptance, they find their light.


So let the anthem of inclusion play,

In queer sports, where diversity holds sway.

For in the arena of love and truest glee,

All are winners, forever wild and free.

Queerness, Disability, and Gundam

 

With both the English sub and dub of the series being uploaded to YouTube, I think it’s time to discuss queerness as it relates to the Gundam Aerial from the anime Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury. This anime is one of the highest earning Gundam properties ever released. It is also the first Gundam anime to have a protagonist who is either queer, disabled, or a woman. So let me introduce you to this world by describing what Gundams are, how they tie to queerness, and how they discuss themes of queerness and disability in The Witch from Mercury.

Before we can talk about The Witch from Mercury, we first need to know what a Gundam is. To those who don’t know, Gundam is a multimedia franchise following pilots of giant mech suits. You may recognize this concept from media such as Pacific Rim, Power Rangers, Voltron, or Metal Gear Solid. Gundam media typically uses these mechs to explore themes of anti-war and anti-capitalism. Now, the way a mech is portrayed in media is much more important than some would expect. Metal Gear Solid makes its mechs, also known as Metal Gears, very animalistic with tails, roars, and all. This is a discussion of war being an animalistic fight for survival in which the strong survive. Blunt objects give way to swords, swords give way to guns, guns give way to tanks, and tanks give way to Metal Gears. In contrast, Gundam likes to design its mechs, also known as Mobile Suits, and Gundams, more like people in armor. Similar to Metal Gears, Gundams are the next step in corporate and war technology. Why spend millions on human soldiers who are easy to kill when you can send in an 18-meter robot that takes a smaller team and can do the same things on a larger scale. Gundam’s mechs function more on how impersonal they are compared to the pilot.

Now, Gundam is not new to queerness. Older shows were no strangers to queer-coded characters; newer ones such as Gundam: Iron Blooded Orphans even had queer characters and potential lovers in Yamagi and Shino. Sadley, they killed off Shino before the relationship would ever come to fruition. However, it wasn’t until 2022 that Suletta Mercury, and Miorine Rembran would break this cycle. Now, you may be thinking “well, it’s cool that Gundam has a queer protagonist, but what does that have to do with the mech?” Mechs have an odd connection to queerness. Despite typically being used to discuss topics such as imperialism, the war economy, and other displays of fascism, they have also resonated with many queer people. This is eloquently stated in the article “Big Queer War Machine” by Cynan-Juniper Orton.

We wouldn’t question why a tank is used for war but when the machine looks like a person suddenly we begin to have doubts. Mechs are not practical tools of war. It seems silly to point this out but there is a reason they look so much like people. They are extensions of our humanity. A humanity that longs to sing, dance, explore, know, love, and break beyond its own limits.  The tragedy of mechs is that these colossal people are made to live as a site of conflict; that they are born to die rather than experience every glorious moment in-between.

It's not hard then to understand why queer folk might delve deep into the genre. A queer body is also a constant site of conflict, pulled apart by a thousand forces so large that no one individual could ever fully confront them. A mech is big enough though. It's like a pair of six inch platform boots made of solid iron, and when you pilot one you pour all your alienation into its frame and for one glorious fictional moment are big enough to fight back. You take what comfort you can from bloodying their noses even if needing to fight is exactly the horror you want to escape.

The moment a pilot launches their mech into battle is a deeply sad one. It is the point at which all the agency that body affords is taken away. If a narrative doesn’t treat that agency with weight then those pilots become just as hollow as their mechs. (Orton 2021)

These concepts can be seen in the Gundam Aerial. Spoiler warning ahead.

Throughout the show, Aerial’s very existence is a source of conflict. First and foremost, she is a physical body given to the consciousness of a young girl named Eri who died before the main series takes place. Areial is the prosthetic, not the person. She is constantly threatened and defended in conversations she can’t have any say in between people she doesn’t know. Her existence in the school is so contested that multiple characters are trying to claim her, and others such as Suletta and Miorine are so reliant on her that their very livelihoods are left up to her succeeding in fights against opponents who will lie and cheat just to get rid of her.

Queer people often have a similar experience. Their rights to exist are treated as topics of debate from people too separated from them to truly have a say. Their existence in schools is treated as walking advertisements for the schools “openness,” while a good chunk of the school makes their lives a living hell. Their queer friends and classmates rely on them for companionship, all while groups larger than themselves will use whatever scummy tactics are necessary to ruin them. Aerial can be interpreted as a representation of queerness.

While Aerial is relatable in discussions of queerness, Eri is relatable in discussions of disability. On July second, Twitter user NilLaney (here’s an alternative link)  posted a thread discussing many themes handled in The Witch from Mercury, here is an excerpt:

 Eri is relatable to many folks with disabilities. She had no choice in being uploaded into Aerial. Many children with disabilities get procedures and treatment they may not have wanted because of their parents fears. Deaf kids with cochlear implants. Autistic kids getting ABA. Eri ends up feeling emotionally responsible for her whole family, while being unable to move or speak independently. She doesn’t see her own existence as much other than to prevent her mother’s sadness. Many disabled kids end up feeling this way about their anxious parents. So many folks with motor & speech disabilities get treated like objects. Talked about, talked over. Moved without consent. Subject to the projections of abled folks. All of this happens to Eri as Aerial.  Most authors can’t imagine a better ending than death for these characters. It is SO beautiful that Eri not only lives, but is surrounded by loving family who *accommodate her disability by wearing communication devices.*” (NilLaney 2023)

Similar to Aerial, Eri lacks agency in discussions of herself. In many of these conversations, both queer and disabled people are often treated like children who can’t have a say on their existence,  rather than people with voices to be heard. They are treated like they exist so the conversation can exist, not to participate in it. 

Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch from Mercury, in addition to its queer characters, utilizes mechs to discuss themes relating to queer theory, and crip theory. Gundam Aerial, in particular, serves as a discussion of queerness, agency, and disability that you simply don’t see all too often in such a succinct form, especially not with a happy ending.

Citations/links

Big Queer War Machine https://kritiqal.com/articles/big-queer-war-machine

NilLaney https://twitter.com/NilLaney/status/1675647623200382976

Alt NilLaney https://imgur.com/a/JWvAkof

Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch From Mercury English dub https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJV1h9xQ7Hx-MSngXeq-sRbelh5zCVRNI&feature=shared

Mobile Suit Gundam: The Witch From Mercury English sub: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJV1h9xQ7Hx_jXtO1GrrS0to_ojc672HG&feature=shared

I'll see you when I see you


 This is a bit of a nontraditional image. It is inspired by the last words I said to a trans friend of mine who has since gone radio silent. She once told me that she liked kitbashing ships into new cooler ships, so I represented myself as a Gundam waving goodbye to her, the ship. When saying goodbye to someone on a ship (or the ship itself). you don't know if you'll see it again; the ocean can do with the ship as it pleases. This is similar to saying goodbye to someone you only know online; you have no real way of knowing if this goodbye will be your last.

Sunday, December 10, 2023

Explore 1: Queer Theory as a lens

Put on your queer glasses

And see the world 

From a new perspective


Suddenly, the grass

Does seem greener

On the other side

Wherein no boundaries lie


Put on your queer glasses

And remind yourself

Of who you truly are


Suddenly, the world

Has no say 

You are unapologetically yourself

Free as the wind


Put on your queer glasses

And admire 

Your surroundings


Suddenly, bodies 

Move meaningfully

Privately and publicly performing 

The truths they are meant to live


Put on your queer glasses

And see the world 

From a new perspective







Explore 5: Paris Is Burning

Find me in a crowded room

Full of cheers 

Full of tears

Full of queers

Find my heart placed 

In the center of the floor

Ready to rest in the palms

Of any queen to pick it up


Find me in their fingers

Curling

Wagging

Pointing 

Find my soul in their gestures

A middle finger to normal

Waving towards the heavens

Riding out the high


Find me in their faces

Rouge lips

Sharp brows

Beauty marks

Find me in their highlighter 

As bright as their personalities

Mimicking the stars they are

A reminder they are never invisible


You can find me 

At the ball









Explore 4: Crip theory- a response to "Stones in my pocket, stones in my heart"

Stones in my pocket
Remind me of church
Of all of those years 
Spent begging for forgiveness
Crying to the heavens
And the silence the resounded
Through the pews 
In response

Stones in my pocket
Remind me of high school
Of the boy who made me his
Devoured my body whole
Until I had nothing left to offer
Drained my cup
And left me high and dry 

Stones in my pocket 
Remind me of that job
Of a summer filled with resent
Managers telling me to calm down
That the way he spoke 
Was how he should speak to girls at the bar
Not at work
But at least he kept the dishes clean

But stones in my pocket 
Can only weigh me down
Stones in my heart
Will surely turn my blood cold
So instead they rest in my palms
Warm with rage
I throw them at all the glass ceilings I can find


Explore 3: "Queer"

They throw queer at me 

Like it is an insult

They want it to land

Like a punch to the ribs

A right hook to the chin

A kick in the shins

They want it to hurt


But how can queer hurt

When it is built with so much strength?

You can throw insults all you want

I have decades of stones

And walls 

And riots behind me



Explore 2: The trouble with normal

"Just be normal."

I ask: "how?"


Normal is skinny bodies

Unmuscular and dainty 

Waiting for the perfect man to sweep them up

Me?

I dream of having strong thighs

bulging biceps 

and shoulders strong enough to carry the weight of the world


Normal is choosing a side

You can love one

or the other

but definitely not both 

Me?

I dream of feminine lips to kiss 

And strong hands holding my hips

I refuse to settle on one 


Normal is prayer 

Sundays spent at alters

Pastors waving their hands to the heavens

Me?

Sundays are for self care

Spent far away from the confides of religion

Riding the line of indulgence and gluttony 


How can I be normal

When normal is a distant island

Surrounded by waters

I have no intention of crossing?








Explore 7: A poem on womanhood and sports

What makes me a woman?

I can cook

clean

care

comfort

Be everything society tells me to be

What makes me an athlete?

I can run

jump 

cheer

dive

pat my teammate's backs

What makes me a woman athlete?

Now that's a different story. 

They push me into a corner and 

examine every inch of me

Who cares about my level of sportsmanship

If my levels of testosterone are too high? 

Who cares about my ethic?

Who cares about my drive?

I am constantly reminded that this is a man's world

Until I become too masculine


Discovering the Queer Reality

In a bustling city where diversity painted its streets, Alex navigated the vibrant landscape of queer theory and popular culture. Working at a progressive magazine, they found themselves at the intersection of academia and everyday life.

One day, an idea sparked: a feature exploring the influence of popular culture on shaping queer identities. Alex dove into the realms of film, music, and social media, uncovering stories of resilience, strength, and celebration.

They met Kieran, a young artist challenging norms through their provocative paintings. Each stroke on the canvas told a tale of defiance and self-discovery. Kieran's work not only mirrored queer theory but also became a catalyst for discussions around representation and visibility. 

As the feature unfolded, Alex interviewed Jules, a non-binary fashion influencer breaking barriers in the industry. Jules spoke passionately about the power of style in expressing diverse gender identities, highlighting the symbiotic relationship between fashion and queer theory.

The story weaved through the lives of those challenging societal expectations, using the canvas of popular culture to redefine narratives. Alex, inspired by their narratives, realized the profound impact of media and art on shaping perceptions, pushing boundaries, and fostering a more inclusive world.

The magazine's feature became a catalyst for conversations across the city and beyond. In this bustling hub of creativity, where queer theory met popular culture, Alex witnessed a dynamic fusion that not only reflected the community's resilience, but also sparked a wave of change, one story at a time.

Haiku for Module 7: Queer in Sports

 

No, seriously

“Breaststrokers” and “Ball-handlers”

On high school t-shirts


This is a reference to the t-shirts the boy’s swim team at my high school had printed which said “We are breaststrokers, not ball-handlers” (yes, some adult(s) at the school approved of this). It was meant as a jab to the football and basketball teams who traditionally were the most popular sports. It is a disgustingly sexist and homophobic phrase- all at once objectifying women and deriding homosexuality. I think it’s significant that athletics was the vehicle by which this shirt was allowed to be worn at (and even designed/sold by?) the school. It’s clear that in the world of sports there can often be even more tolerance for bigotry and bullying than in the general public, and that “boys will be boys” and “locker room talk” is acceptable if it motivates or “hypes up” athletes to perform better.


Katherine (Katie) Harmon, Queer Theory, Fall 2023

Tuesday, December 5, 2023

Kaleidoscope of Light

In Paris, where flames of truth ignite,

Kiki, Butler, dancing in the light.

Judith weaves words, theories unfold,

In ballroom beats, tales of courage told.


Paris is burning, a vibrant fire,

Kiki's spirit soaring higher and higher.

Butler's pen dissects norms with grace,

A dance of ideas in a fierce embrace.


Kiki vogues, fierce on the stage,

Challenging norms, turning the page.

Butler's words, a philosophical rhyme,

Unveiling truths in the ballroom's time.


Paris pulses, a kaleidoscope of hues,

Butler's theories dance in Kiki's shoes.

In the ballroom's rhythm, defiance sways,

A poetic fusion of Kiki's and Butler's days.

Bite My Tongue

 


As a woman you are often given a lot of expectations and sometimes you just want to quit.

This week we talked about being queer in sports and I made this painting because a lot of our problems as a society are from our own pressures. If only we could be ourselves, if only the world were blind to our minute differences.

The Uncanny Valley

 The Uncanny Valley


This week we talked about queer popular culture and I thought about how people use queer characters as a prop rather than an actual person. It inspired me to make this painting.

I painted this with the intention of leaving the viewer with an unsettling feeling. I think a lot of people have an idea of how they want to see people, and the uncanny valley is the type of feeling you get when something is slightly off and you feel a little unsettled.

I made this painting to make people feel uncomfortable. 

Sunday, December 3, 2023

Queer Sport

 


Queer Sport


Transgender students denied a field,

Where their identity, society wields.

For sports teams now, a birth certificate's claim,

Defines the path, igniting the flame.


Bullying, rejection, and discrimination sting,

Already high risks that challenges bring.

A law misguided worsens one's rights,

Of those who navigate a challenging night.


In the Lone Star's glow, resilience grows,

Amongst the youth, a strength that shows.

For every obstacle, a voice will rise,

Defying laws that challenge the skies.

 


        Queer Theory and Pop Culture

    In the glow of screens, a staged portrayal unfolds,

    Queer characters and narratives are controlled.

    Scripted by writers with a need to define,

    Digestible 'types,' a storyline confined.


    If they see our eyes, Will they realize

    In the hands of producers, a performance lies.

    Editing carefully, creating the stereotype,

    A reflection of what we 'know,' a media type.


    Queer theory ponders distinctions between few,

    Between 'real' and 'fake,' an exciting view.

    Representation surges, yet gaps remain,

    In the media's mirror, a distorted terrain.

Friday, December 1, 2023

Unmasking Progress in Popular Culture


 

I crafted this board of devil masks to symbolize the portrayal of queer individuals in popular culture. The devil masks serve as a visual testament to a journey marked by progress and, concurrently, by its own set of limitations. Queer individuals were historically subjected to stereotypical or negative depictions in the mainstream media. However, the evolving attitudes in society instigated a transformation in how media portrayed this community. The emergence of a more diverse range of queer characters across various media forms marked a positive shift. Despite the advancements, contemporary portrayals of queerness find themselves contending with "compulsion for a happy ending." This phenomenon underscores that even with notable progress, there remains a significant journey ahead to achieve truly authentic representations. As I look at the board, I recognize the strides made and the hurdles yet to overcome in the realm of queer representation in popular culture.

-Dahara de Silva-

Sunday, November 19, 2023

The "Equality" state (module 2)


For this module, we were asked to post something that discusses the concept of "normalcy." I chose to discuss this concept using the Chick-Fil-A that has cursed the Wyoming union. 

The concept of normalcy can be utilized to harm queer people. In a world where being normal is considered a virtue, anyone (in this case queer people) else is deemed as undesirable in comparison. This in turn makes it easier to enforce fascist systems as people will be too scared to be deemed "off."

Soon, it will become the "norm" to see a Chick-Fil-A within seconds of entering the union's front entrance.  This is a harmful norm because Chick-Fil-A is a brand dedicated to funding ongoing efforts to harm queer people. This sign (soon to be area) is doomed to become a monument to the normalization of queerphobia, fascism, and subpar restaurants in UW. 

This restaurant is being used to send a message: "you are not wanted here." So much for The "Equality" State.


 

I’ve played Wolfenstein,

A fantasy above all,

Where there’s hope that nazis will fall,

I wander Endless corridors,

Where Fascists litter floors second only to the tiles.

 

I enter the Union,

Avoid the food court,

They don’t want me,

Avoid eye contact,

They don’t want me.

 

A sign,

“Only two genders,”

Surrounded by apologetics about shooting your problems,

I know to leave,

But where aren’t they.

 

I read the news,

“it’s free speech,”

I know what they mean,

Each letter was typed with one arm raised.

 

I go to my class, my one respite,

To understand the history of our plight,

“Just leave the kids be, free from your filthy gender ideology,”

I am not wanted here.

 

I enter the Union,

Where fascists litter the floor second only to tile,

Not with blood, but hatred,

I am not allowed hope,

For protection, love, or pity.